Well I'll say the same thing to you then---make a list of pros and cons---you always have a choice(unless someone gets a court order) but I'm more familiar with your situation so I can tell you some of the cons---mainly the issue of disability--I don't know the laws but as long as you need a doc to say you're sick every few years you're sort of stuck----one thing I wonder about is whether you can use a forensic psychiatrist---they don't treat you at all but just assess you and they are pricey $250-$500 an hour and I don't think insurance will cover it since its not treatment. But yeah as long as you have a normal clinical pdoc they are going to want to put you on drugs because that is the only kind of treatment they know how to give...