Talulah, I back up what Cajun said. It is right. It will happen.

I went through a time like you are going through. I called it "mourning"; mourning innocence lost and mourning time. I lost a lot of good years being angry and acting out, losing relationships, etc.

No matter what your abuse was, Talulah, it was not your fault. You have nothing to be ashamed of. It's all on your perpetrator!

You'll get through this. I promise.