Sorry you are feeling that way, Sunrise.

I hate to tell you this, but I seem to be able to function for a few months (two - four mos) & then WHAM! I crash again. I go through depressive episodes for approx nine mos.....I wish I knew the answer as to how to prevent it.......just try to monitor your stress levels & triggers.......

Btw, I hate the idea of meds, too, but hey, if it helps me, then I guess I have to..........

Good luck & take care of yourself.

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