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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
My voices are telling me not to take my meds because I deserve to suffer. I'm so sick of this.
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Mine say that too. It makes things confusing, well for me anyway
How is your new AP working out?
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Originally Posted by newtus
so its basically up to me to keep to myself and not be in hospital.
hm. ive been in so many times. maybe i should take meds consistently and hopefully this regimen works but i dont want to be on injections. :/
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Yes it's up to you to keep out of trouble so they'll leave you alone. If you make noise and become a hassle, they'll make life even more difficult for you. I think taking meds is best for now
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Originally Posted by newtus
idk why i keep ending up in hospital. this past time i kept saying to my therapist "dont call 911. dont call 911" and she did on me.
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You told your T that you were suicidal and would act on it! She would have to be completely incompetent or uncaring not to have you admitted. Much as I hate the fact that I was Sectioned, I had every intention of killing myself at that point so it was a no brainer for the docs.
Saw the OT today. Dad told her I'd been doing really well this week
She is trying to squeeze me into the next mindfulness course, and next week she is going to take me to sign up for a MH jewellery class. She's also going to make sure that I'm on the psychologist waiting list, and find out what's happening with the pdocs (apparently they closed my electronic file even though they told me I'd see them when I left the hospital, though I don't really care if I see them or not as I'm not on meds and they're crap). And I'm to continue doing what I'm doing ie getting up early, keeping busy & showering once a week.
Mum had her biopsy today and then they're going to start treating it. They're hopeful that her liver & brain will improve with treatment, though it may be trial and error to find the right med. They won't be certain until the histology results are in which will be a few weeks, but I'm trying to be hopeful that the damage is still reversible, and I keep reassuring my Dad cos he's worried. My Mum yesterday said to me that I was the only one who truly understood what it was like for your brain/body to fail you, which made me sad thinking about how cross I was with her for being mean when it was her brain all messed up. I still worry that she won't get back to normal and I'll never be able to have a proper conversation with her again, but I'm trying to believe the spiel I keep spouting to everyone else.
Hope everyone else is ok
*Willow*