That's not exactly what I meant---closing off from your treatment team isn't a great idea they should be able to handle it---plus you can go out just don't get into trouble you know...I just remember something about you driving with the door open or maybe starting a fire or something although I might be confusing that with someone else---stuff like that--- rule breaking that's what I meant about keeping quiet and to yourself---you can do whatever you want as long as its not going to result in the police being called.

As far as being suicidal---that is something you actually do need help on so you can't just hide it and hope it goes away but I sort of disagree with your T's approach of just send her to the hospital because I don't think that's effective except in the very short term. I'm hoping your new pdoc can suggest a new T that might be a little more reasonable and be able to talk to you about your depression. And you will always have us here to talk to...