I would definitely consider medication at this point because it seems to me like your depression has sucked the joy and fun out of everything.

I feel like sophiesmom is spot on. You are among people who have had felt the same sense of apathy that you have right now. And I really couldn't tell you how it turns out without external help because I turned to medication and counseling as well before I finally started to feel a little better. For me, the hole that I was in was so deep I couldn't get out myself.

Medication helped give me a more even playing field so that I COULD begin to function a little more normally again. And that's the boost I really needed (and probably would have died without). Mainly, I just want to say that you should seek out help from a more professional source and really just see how it goes.

Best of luck!