Hello,
My name is Lenny and I noticed you mentioned you are scared a lot. I have been treated for depression for the past 15 years and being scared is not a bad thing, it just feels like crap. Don't let society make you wrong for being scared. Being scared won't kill you. It will pass and you will find some course of action that will work. In side of you, you know what to do. It may take awhile to get to it but it is there. You will develope the courage to follow your heart.

You are not wrong, bad, a mistake, and any other negitive thing you head is trying to tell you. Recovery from the effects of depression is not easy but with help, good Doctors, friends, and support you can make it.

Peace,

Lenny