Hi,

Well, I'm posting here without any hope or anything, I'm just doing it because... I don't know why. I don't even think that I'm really depressive. Anyway, let's get started.

I'm a 19 years old student from Algeria. I can't figure out what to say from here. There so much to say and nothing to talk about at the same time, but the point is that I no longer have any reason to live anymore (still, I'm not suicidal). It's not depression since I coped with that mental poison several years ago. I just can't see what good I can get from lengthening my life. I'm a social misfit, mocked all along my childhood. I tried to fix this, joining the sheep army, and it almost worked. I'm less ignored than before, people don't really hate me know, and some of them even appreciate me, but I still am different and not completely in the ranks, and I know that even if I was among those bastards, it wouldn't be satisfying.

Concerning studies, I'm barely floating on the surface. I manage to save myself the exam's eve, except this year where I know that I can't get through. The reason is simple : Every time I come from college, the only thing I can do is lay and sleep, or at least stay still on my pillow, down in the dumps. I'm not intelligent, I have no particular talent. No matter how far I go studying, my underdeveloped country doesn't offer any decent future, and other developed countries don't need people like.

I don't know what to do. No hope in society neither in studies, the two main basis nowadays. I'm just condemned carrying on a useless life with, as only entertainment, the cursed pleasure to see people live through a window as I lay despondent.

Sorry, I really don't know why I'm writing this (maybe the foolish hope that I will get attention like a little cute kitty). Some of you won't even consider this as an actual problem, but I just needed to... well I don't know.

Thanks for whoever wasted his time reading this.