I have a similar experience. I was fine for about 2-3 years then had a series of downward cycles last year. I don't think I was wrong coming of of them. I had good systems in place to help me when I get down. What I failed to realize those systems have to be maintained and it is a lot quicker to take a pill then to rely on them if you haven't been maintaining them. For example I found a diet with lots of fruits and veggies in a juicer is something I can do and is good. Add in a semi annual cleanse and home cooking I can maintain stability. Mindfulness practice helped too and I did that everyday. Couple other things too. Then I got confident and lazy and busy. Not necessarily in that order. Then I got derailed and I couldn't get back on track. I didn't have any other options to pick from. I hope that changes.

So building those habits is important but I can't be lax about keeping them there. Does that mean they aren't successful? I think it means we need extra help sometimes. More than most. It is a matter for the individual to choose what is important and what they are capable of. It's also having more options available that are safer then ssri's.

About the derailment... That too is a life lesson in what I can handle. Maybe someday I could learn those things before they happen?

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