Has this ever happened to you?
I was in the hospital for my eating disorder, and one of the MTs came in to watch us and whatever. She was still in school and had worked on some of the other floors (each floor corresponds to a different mental illness) so she had learned a bit about and had a bit of experience with psychotic patients.
So she started talking to the ED patients about how much she was filled with awe about schizophrenia and whatnot. Basically saying that the human brain is incredible, and could you imagine experiencing the world like that? What if that was your reality? It had an undertone of "we need to try to understand these people" and seemed generally positive.
So because the atmosphere was friendly and I was feeling more open about sharing what I've been through, I started talking about my experience with the illness (hallucinations and delusions because the other stuff is harder to explain).
And she (the MT) and the other patients just gave me a look like I was utterly insane.
Like, WTF? Don't fake compassion and then act all freaked out and disturbed when you meet an ACTUAL PERSON WITH ACTUAL PROBLEMS.
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