Over the years, I've had something along those lines, yeah. You don't want to get your hopes up. "Don't count your chickens before they've hatched". After a while of being let down, you tend to get used to it. I think I'm better at it, now, but it's not always like that. There are times when I'll be really happy, then suddenly it drops down to my thinking all sorts of depressing, morbid things. It's like I won't let myself just be happy. Then again, I probably feel that I don't deserve to be happy.