Okay. I really am sorry that life hasn't been a fun ride for you but I'm extremely annoyed at the fact that you think other people seem to have it easy. Yes. I am lucky to have a mother who loves me and money to pay for my education but I did not have it easy a single bit. My dad hit me and my sister on a regular basis. I was bullied by my roommate last year to the point I was afraid to come back to my room. The expectations placed upon me by my parents and family is overwhelming. Do you know what it's like to be compared to a girl who went to college at 16 years old? She's only a few years older than me and has already graduated as a doctor and I'm barely surviving college. My mom talked about my weight until I developed an eating disorder. I cut starting from junior high onward because I hated my life so much. I was forced into doing all sorts of sports and activities until I could no longer recognize what I wanted. In fact I didn't even realize that I had an opinion asides from my parents' until college. I only had the choice to be smart. To work hard. I had to start studying for college exams in 6th grade. I was not allowed to have fun or make my own decisions. Learn to play the piano. Take ballet. Join student council. My life was planned from the start and I was just a doll that had to go through with it. Let's add the fact that I'm gay on top of that and see how my parents will take that when I finally decide to come out because I'm afraid of being disowned. The guilt of not living up to expectation and being on my own and realizing that I've barely ever done something I wanted to do? Sure I've had some fun times in between being slapped around and stopping arguments between my parents since I was 5 years old. My dad cheated with a girl half his age and had the audacity to claim he was the victim. And you know what? I still have to see him every week as part of the court agreement. What do you say to the man who gave you half his genes and who owns a business and still won't have for child support? (This the summarized version as I need to sleep soon)

I understand you are upset that life isn't fair and that a lot of bad things have been happening to you and I truly am sorry that all of this has happened to you and your resentment towards life but don't you dare assume that people with "silver spoons shoved up their ___" had a free ticket to life. I have worked so hard for the little bit that I have. And for all of it that isn't mine, don't worry, I've been reminded everyday what my parents had to pay to get me here. It has given me nothing but grief, panic, and overwhelming anxiety for messing up even the slightest bit.

Please don't compare your problems to mine and think that I had it so much easier. My problems and depression are just as real as yours and we're all together on this crazy merry-go-round with no idea why we are here or why we feel terrible. I truly am sorry to hear that your outlook on life has been destroyed by life itself but please take comfort in the fact that you are not alone. Life may not be a gift but it is yours and even if you don't like it a lot of the time or wish to return it, it does have quite the way of surprising people with goodness when they need it most. I hope good things come your way soon.

Also, just because you aren't good at something doesn't mean you don't like things. My hobbies are mainly art and the only reason I don't suck as much as I used to is because I have practiced for 10 years now. Natural gifts only get you so far in life. The rest is hard work. If there is anything you do find some sort of interest that hasn't been eaten by depression, I would suggest to pursue it and see where it leads.

Best of luck!