the first thing that struck me about this post was you saying that you have lots to say, but their's nothing really to talk about

made me feel straight away that perhaps you're like me... you've tried forever to get across how you're feeling, but it's just not working- no one seems interested so you're like, what the hell.

you're lucky you study- i actually envy you. because of the extent of my illness, i've not been able to study (or do anything much) for ever.

can't hold anything down

my biggist concern is always the future. people ask me where do you want to be in 5, 10 years time, and i can't even answer where i'd see myself in like a month

hugs