I can totally relate to this. Though am in limbo for mental health team now �� am scared incase I get the wrong treatment and don't get better. I come back to my boyfriend this Mornin (who stayed in my house last night to calm me lol ) and now I constantly worry he will leave me for a 'normal ' ' not damaged by past' woman. It's driving me nuts. �� I hope it gets better soon and I hope someone can help relieve you too. In meantime if u need me to rant to am always here. Pm or message me. Ash xxx