I have to move out of my studio because I found a sublet before my move overseas was postponed.

I am applying to emails on Craigslist for houses in my neighborhood. I am so anxious because I don't have the best reputation around here. It isn't too heinous. I haven't done anything awful. However, after a man cyberbullied me after I politely disagreed with him over classist statements made at the bar when he was inebriated, I have been told that a lot of people in my neighborhood think that I am a *****. I suppose that is the price you pay for being an articulate feminist. Also, I have had a few drunken nights that I am not proud of. I didn't do anything bad, I was just THAT drunk girl. This happened more than I like to admit when I thought it was OK to drink on medication. I know am unmedicated, stable, and maybe drink once a week. However, I have been teased about it. It fills me with extreme anxiety. I wish that people were more forgiving and understanding.

I am afraid that people are going to see my emails and laugh at me. I just feel so sad and anxious.

I'm growing and I get better everyday. Doesn't that count for anything?