or in Sexual Abuse.

Lately I've been replaying in my mind, the sexual abuse that my father gave me. I don't know why. I don't like it! This was over 60 yrs ago! Why now??

I mentioned to a friend last week that what he did to me wasn't painful but he left me feeling like I was "in love" with him. He left the family for good when I was six and died when I was ten. I missed him terribly all my teenage years although my mom would remind me from time to time how physically abusive he was to me, too. It didn't seem to matter although I could see the cruelty.

He did imprint on me what he had me do when he was sexual with me, although it never caused me problems with my sexual partners.

Why am thinking about it so much?? Why is it coming up NOW? UGH!!

Anyone have problems like this? What do you do about it?