Did you know that many comedians have reported as being extremely depressed? I believe it. For me I was really depressed...and actually learned how to smile for others. I don't think it was an idea of faking it, or it being a mask like others have told me. I simply explained to them. No, its just simply in me. I just use it. I don't think joy ever leaves a human being. I just think its necessary to be sad sometimes even extremely. I have had on my FB That I cry everyday and laugh on most days. Its been on there ever since I had it. ..about maybe 7 years. I guess.
Though I have many dark expressions and may appear pessimistic to some. I can be extremely funny and comical. ...but I have to say, I only got more comical on things, when I got more oppressed/depressed. Its strange. ...but I will accept it as a gift, not a disorder. It works.