I've been stuck in a city I despise for the last 5 years. No job opportunities, the people here are a bunch of pricks, the city itself is ugly as all hell, etc. I've been working my *** off to find a way to leave but it just seems like I am stranded here. To add insult to injury, I have pretty well thrown away my entire early 20's. I will be 24 in a month and I have no happy memories, no valuable experiences, etc, to show for it because I have been stuck here.

I'm having a tough time understanding what the purpose of all of this has been. Am I some sort of experiment or something? Why does everyone else, my age, and particularly of my generation, have so much, and I have so little? That's the question I've been desperately needing an answer to. I don't have anyone or anything to relate my experience to, so I have to deal with heavy isolation as well on top of it.

I also have a long history of mental health issues. Severe ocd, severe anxiety, etc. The few things that I need to make those things better I have been deprived of here (ie. healthy social experiences and accomplishment). So it's become a vicious cycle of regression and misery. There is absolutely nothing I could do while I am still living here to better my condition, it is only destined to get worse. I don't have friends here, nor do i want to associate with the people here. They're all a bunch of cliquey, insular, douchebags. The mental health resources here are pretty much nil, so no hope for a decent psychologist. The physical environment itself is aesthetically displeasing in every way. I feel a jolt of depression every time I look out my window.

What would you do if you were in this predicament?