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Originally Posted by Clara22
Hi Mulan,
Thanks for answering my question. I asked you about normalcy because i have read you talk about normalcy before and i was curious about your idea of normalcy. To me, it is not exactly like the concept of beauty, but you are right, it is quite similar. There is a normative or scale and it is externally determined. We could discuss years about it but to me the most important thing is that you observe and realize your behavior and thoughts and feelings behind it are not similar to the behavior, etc of the majority of people. So, you are sure there is something wrong with you, mostly at social level. You said that you did not want to be like your mom, who seems to have some social issues, as well. Do you think that you can have inherited these issues from your mom? I am asking you because my psychiatrist told me that in me there was a tendency inhereted from my mom. Ok, hope you feel better and i look foward being in touch with you
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Hey thanks...I really think that people on these forum, at least some of them are really great and caring. I don't want to boring people with my problems, but thank you for being here.
Just answearing, I just hope I didn't inhereted these traits from my mother, it is one of the things that I have been avoinding to be in my life. But sometimes I think that, that I can be way worst with people than my mother (I mean socially akwardness). But it's not just by watching and having my mothers example, my father can be way to emotionless some times and mean to people...I think I has some issues in controling is anger. He is also shy, less than my mother but he is, he is just good in hiding it and he learned to not care about it with time. But both of them are pretty isolated people in what respects being with others...I guess it's not a good example to grow up with. They don't have friends...also it is pretty great to know that my mother is chronically depressed with paranoid and squizoid traits...it was writen in her disability letter by my pdoc. Sometimes life at home gets really annoying, but it was worst in the past. I use to think that I didn't care and my way of being was my folt. This is getting to long but I'm going to say just one more thing. My pdoc (that is my sister pdoc, was my mother's and my father's pdoc!) thinks I have a personality issue. I tried to figure out what she may would think and I have some inclination that she thinks I'm also something between squizoid and psycho...I hope she doesn't think this, but from what I told her she never really could guess my social issues from the way I see them. I've been getting to the conclusion that I might be this way because a malfunction coping mechanism. I get the conclusion that I feel unreal since ever and that felt always somewhat normal to me and I daydreamed a lot, much more that I wanted or I should since ever. I almost feel that I have created for me many alternative lives and the only one that's unreal is my real one. Sometimes is way to hard to not mix them, it is like I wish I had my feet on the ground.
Well, I thanked the ones who read this until the end.