Hi Jen, ABSOLUTELY agree with the above.........got to start making tracks/getting away from it!! Social Services/relatives/friends you could stay with?? Ways to become financially solvent??
But until you've sorted that "civil" can be as simple as "hello", "goodbye" and a few slight additions in between. And as much distance as you can manage as possible, hey? Both physically AND emotionally. I know the emotional abuse has really got to hurt, especially after the effect of what he has done before, but whatever he says is down to HIS problems. It's not about and says NOTHING about you or who you are. Just try not to take "ownership" of it or "take it on board". I know that that might sound impossible, but every little step in that direction you can take for now..........
As for forgiveness, I'd say that could be kind of idealized (?). Maybe for some but............
Unless a different interpretation could be "accepting"..........., "working through what has happened"........, moving on/away from..........., recognizing your actual value............ and making your life your own............. I know for some that might be idealised as well (!!), but just some thoughts.
But, yes, getting away from him has got to be a priority.
Alison