i don`t understand.....
your biologicall age is 59 or 75?

i must say that i am also a lonely person!
much yonger than you are but still..have online friends. too.

and i wonder...you HAD friends but what you felt was missing there..
maybe after you saw it was missing you felt like "why teh heck should i make friends if i don`t have waht i want"
maybe you should decide what you want in a friend and then try to go out and see.
maybe there wasn`t TRUST? a DEEP relatiohship?
i think that sometimes we need ti feel close for some1 and that he or she will understand us. you know..ppl who are more..like you?

i am strugling with the same issue these days but i think that our reasons may be different....i am in my 20s.

as for teh health thing-well-you know it depends on you
if you really want it you do it if you just "don`t feel like" at the moment..it happenes but NOTHING can resist our will...
NOTHING

certain ppl changed their lives from being a drug addict, a criminal and an alcoholic to a normal person, and then a famust outhor.....you see//
i guess you know the sky is the limmit

huggs
"ladyMCB"