Well I don't blame her, nobody has any obligation to like me. But she should have told me at the start if she didn't want to as I made my intentions VERY clear. And as you say, doing everything you can and failing is a hard thing to accept. Well, I guess there is no use crying at this point. It was an experience, although a painful one. I learnt a lot of things, I just wish experiences like this wasn't so few and far between. My self-confidence is fine, I'm pretty sure there is nothing wrong with me and I'm really happy to be myself. I may even be somewhat of an egoist. But I guess some sort of ego boost wouldn't be bad.

Thanks for all the help. I feel better now that I got this out of my chest. I didn't want to talk about all these with my friends. And this forum seem like a cool place, I might hang out occasionally.