I was read the answers on that post about smiling and being depressed. And I thought, even so there's no one like me.
I had a big struggle with my doctor some years ago because she was trying to make me believe that what I have was depression and I was all septical because I never fill the criteria. Not for many long time. In one of those moments I was feeling terrible, the thing I most wanted to do was laughing. It was one of the high moments of jokes coming from me. I couldn't be sad. I think I never was really, deeply sad for more than few moments. It's like when I'm having a bad moment, or I am in a bad situation I don't feel sad, and I don't really realize I'm in a bad situation most of the times. Many times after I cry by a non expected reason I really feel like laughing and making jokes, they are maybe the most creative times for me. When I am with people I feel comfortable with I laugh and make jokes a lot. Well I feel like my head isn't capable of making a good amount of jokes for a long time. I feel bad because people around here talk how deeply sad they are. And it must be very hurtful. I'm I the one who never experienced large amounts of true sadness. I'm that person who can't move to start doing anything but inside is like totally dreaming about doing stuff and imagine it and smiling about it. And I know that at least some days the worst I am, like totally no energy, no enjoyment in doing things, just going trough the motions are times when I use to feel more dreamy and somewhat more happier. How strange is this. I'm I the only one who fakes happiness until get to a state that I really think I'm 'happy'. It's like I just enjoy joy. The only series I can watch when I am very low are sitcoms. I'm odd.
For me being sad it's like a sharp nife they pull into to your heart, they scratech it around and take it away, and you instantaneous heals, or loses the ability to feel the pain. It's like a scale the lowest the grade of the sadness the mostly likely is for it to keeps longer.