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I can't count the number of people who have emotionally, physical or sexually abused me over the years.
In childhood, it was rough. There was a lot of anger and high expectations placed on me.
I still haven't grown out of that. People attacked me at school and nobody would help me. My mom complained to the school, but they just let me handle it on my own.
I was used for money and other things. I was taken advantage of.
A group of guys got together and threw pinecones at me everyday after school in 9th grade. They threw them so hard, it felt like i was being punched. Then a different guy sprayed axe body spray in my face.Then as I got older, I was abused more and I can't go into all of it right now. It is very hard to even talk about this amount of abuse.
I was always put down and bullied and critizised for every mistake...everything that went wrong was somehow my fault...
I feel so weighed down in negativity and low self esteem. Its like anything good I did wasn't enough, because I had done so much bad...messed up too much...
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Be the change you want to see in the world. Ghandi
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