I've made such a mess of my life lately and i just need to vent. I got in a fight with my older sister tonight, big time. She's been having a really hard time at her new job because her social anxiety has been flaring up big time. She's been complaining to me each day for 3 weeks now and its gotten to the point where I honestly don't know what she should do/what to even tell her. She then blows up on me, telling me that at least I know how to deal with my social anxiety. That set me off because she doesn't even know the severity of my problems. So we just started screaming at each other and now we are not talking.

Oh, and I'm trying to set up a phone consultation with one of the therapist that I contacted. I hate talking on the phone. I'm afraid that the emails I sent her made me seem like a more put together person than I am. And now I'm scared and nervous that she will find out how at 24 years old, I'm such a pathetic excuse of an adult (and human).

I haven't been sleeping or eating very well. And the idea that I may never get better is becoming more apparent each day.