Thanks everyone.

I'm not suicidal. I rarely think of it, which is kinda a big deal because it's been foremost in my mind for a long time. Sometimes I wish I could just end it, but I'm willing to try stuff, and I'd like to live to be whole if that can ever happen.

At least I'm getting some stuff done. It looks like my college credits and finances are coming together, and I'll just have to worry about being a tolerable roommate and getting coursework done when I come to it. Arranging to get help from my church in paying my therapy co-pay, so hopefully my income will stretch farther... maybe be able to pay the car insurance. Having a co-dependency flare up with my mom, but sticking to my resolutions despite emotions. Things are working somewhat.

Just feeling exceedingly ambivalent and pessimistic, but with too many emotions at times. Pushing on, I guess.

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Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.</font color=green> Sounds good...