i am very resistant to the idea of meds i worry about their long term effects but i feel that depression without meds has altered my brain i know that there is a stage when i have to take meds otherwise i'd end up dead,so far my self preservation has assisted in this .when i feel slightly better i stop my meds i know myself after 20 years of depression when to go back on meds i'm sure drs and drug companies say i should stay on meds but i like to be in control of what i put in my body .i know several people who resist meds totally i say now that they were not that depressed or else they would have asked for meds.these people are involved in alternative lifestyles or a health fanatics who think that anything in straight society is bad ! i am slightly anti psychiatry and a bit rebellious i guess my reluctance with meds reflects this