Hello everyone. I hope this thread will provide some useful insight into what you are currently experiencing. Any thoughts, feedback, opinions are greatly appreciated.

I'm moving on fine. Sometimes though, feelings sort of build up day by day. Those quick painful thoughts that you gently push away everyday, and it gets easier to cope. During those busy days, unwelcome thoughts just pop in. It's not something you can help. And whenever those thoughts happen so often and with so much gentle pushing and spurring myself on with positive thoughts, I sometimes can fail, and I end up being sad at the end of the day.

I end up ranting to somebody again, a friend, a family, but the rants are getting lesser and lesser, with bigger time gaps in between , but some days i still rant to some body. I just have to, I feel better after I do, and then i feel terrible about it because I've ranted about the same things for months to the same people.

I'm worried sick they'll get tired of me ranting, I'm hating myself for being so weak and letting my feelings control me, i can't seem to ever stop ranting, no matter for how long I didn't rant for a certain period of time, I WILL rant again about he SAME THING to the SAME people. I'm so sick of myself. Do I just continue how I am, or do I have a problem, or do i need a little more time, or what?? I can't seem to stop complaining, I'm just so pathetic. There now I'm feeling relieved, but then I'm starting to feel bad for ranting again. I want him OUT of my system. He has overstayed, and he doesn't deserve to be in my thoughts anymore. I don't care if it's a bad decision, I'm already broken and I need to heal. But I can't seem to. Feels like i'm STUCK. I want to stop bothering and letting all my feelings about him out but the people who care about me are just so kind and say they don't mind and i don't wanna end up hurting them too by keeping my feelings all bottled up..

Sorry for the long post. Thanks for reading. I hope this will provide insight to anyone experiencing something similar.