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Originally Posted by shattered sanity
1 of my problems (as well as all my mental issues), is that everyone has always told me what they expect. you know, like, you can't be yourself, you can't have a life... all that stuff.
so i think of the song never been to me (the song by charleen?)
never really had a say in what happens, when it happens, and how it happens- and so now even i can't decide what i'd like for myself
make sense?
i've had choices taken away from me all my life, and so now even i struggle to find my own purpose.. what i'm actually interested in
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I can't make little choices like what to eat in a restaraunt/cofee. I can't buy anything I want. I don't have a minimal clue about what I like. I let the others influence me on almost everything. Maybe I should be just by my self, but I guess I get lost when it happens. I can't chose my clothes either. And when I chose and buy some clothes and my sister don't like them I feel bad about myself. I try to allways agree with everyone which is hard, but that makes me a non-opinion person. The thing that I hated most to be controled was my outfit, because my mother usualy as poor taste (???) for clothes, and I had to dress those horrible sweathers she made me and that I hated. Maybe until 12 years old.