Ever since my mom died I haven't been what I call my new normal. I cry every single day when I think about her. I have a hard time even getting out of bed to go to work and have called in sick on days when I am perfectly well physically but just couldn't handle another day with a bunch of yahoos who don't give a darn about anyone. I can't concentrate on my work and when I do I mess things up. This morning I spent over an hour on one project...didn't do intermittent saves...and lost the whole thing when the program crashed. I don't want to be at home because I get no comfort there. My daughter is grieving too and I can't handle it. I feel like I am tumbling into a bottomless pit and that I will never hit the ground. i just want someone to hold me so I can let it all out and have that person to really understand and give me the sympathy (in person) that I need so desperately. Everyone here has been great. I'm not getting it IRL.