So far so good. I have motivation, the thoughts aren't unmamageable when they do come... in general I feel better. But... but. I'm scared to tell my psychiatrist that I'm not exactly on what he prescribed me. Was it wrong to play with my meds? I am feeling better, at least for now. I'm not abusing the medication (I could probably trigger mania if I wanted to). I'm just tired of the depression and love feeling... 'normal'. I could have been destructive but I tried to be constructive. I don't know. So there's a little anxiety there.