Ok, resuming, just if you wonder, I just studied one lesson today...I haven't slept to much, I couldn't stop thinking and how almost all my thoughts are conversations with other people I really felt I had to write, but mostly I thought nothing gazing no where. I need reality to hit me. When it does it uses to feel overwhelming and way too stressful, but I need, I need reality and need past and future. No one can live like a shadow. I really have too sleep right now.