Hey,

I'm so sorry for all that you went thru. It sounds really tough when you feel like the whole world is against you and trying to get you.

Are you currently in therapy? If not, please do consult one and take your time to find the right one. A therapist is a paid friend and you gel with only a few.

Do you have any siblings or friends you can share your pain with?

I really recommend you to write about all the abuse you underwent. Writing is very therapeutic - be it in a diary or blog. Slowly you would get to a point where you can talk about it a little more freely.

Good luck. We're here to help!