my own brother's offered to get me a valentines card- not really sure how to feel about that

good because i'm gonna get one, but bad and depressed because i've fallen so low i don't have anyone and have to rely on someone in my own family. hmm

in other news, i'm totally annoyed at the moderator of bipolar dream- she messaged me saying that the only reason my message didn't go through is because when a new member joins the list, they get placed on moderated status for 6 months. and i just sent an email back... half a year just to be trusted on a list?. what if you need urgent support?
missed emmerdale yesterday, so will be watching that in an hour or so

that's it really. another run of the mill day