I don't know why things seem to be forgotten/buried/dealt with but then pop back up.

I am having a similar experience. I thought I had dealt with things, but they have been resurfacing and intruding on my thoughts for a while again. I think it is because I am in mid-life, I am single, and my grown son is now living on his own. My identity is in question again. Who am I now that I'm not needed in that capacity? What do I do now? Who is that in the mirror anyway?

Where do I go from here?

Looks like backwards is one of the directions my mind has decided to experiement with...

Those are my thoughts and I am back in therapy where I hope to get help with these old old issues that I thought were over and done with.