I thought I had dealt with it when in therapy... all 15 yrs of it! Maybe I didn't deal with my issues with him. Just wish the memories and thoughts would stop! There doesn't seem to be any point to it. They just come and it's really hard to stop thinking and feeling! UGH!

Sometimes I wish I could just sever the cord that ties me to those people and to the past! EEWWWWWW! My knees go weak when I think about it all!