Maybe, pauly, you can be successful even if you're not "fully recovered." I mean, really a lot of being successful is just faking it and your stamina to do so. I see it at work all the time. Not just me with my dx but everyone. I mean, I work 40 hours a week but I really am only functional for about 20 hours. It's not even either. I bet on Monday I'm functional for maybe 1-2 hours, vs a Friday when I can get a good 5-6 hours out of me, that's my best day of the week, actually.

But, it's not just me, it's everyone.

And being untreated and with all my problems, it's all about faking it and hiding my symptoms as much as possible when they bug me. It's about having the right job. I need a job with a pretty stable routine. (this job is actually getting harder as my needed routine turns more into chaos every day with new projects.) It's about knowing what you can do and not being hard on yourself when things are bad. Sometimes it's scary. I mean, when I'm having a constant loop of intrusive thoughts that aren't pleasant, it's not easy to answer the phone and talk to someone. Getting interrupted can throw me off for at least 20 minutes usually, but often for an hour or more. And I have to take a lot of breaks.

But, I'm proud of myself. Because I've been at this job for 6 years. That's a huge victory for me. But, at the same time, my value is not my job. My value is what I make it, and that's more important to me. This job is just money to feed my family.