I felt like killing myself the first time I disclosed something significant about the past to my therapist. That feeling lasted, at its worst, a few days. I kept breaking down in tears and anxiety, hiding from my family, clamping down on everything so I didn't just get out of control completely and do something awful. My therapist helped me cope with the backlash of my self disclosure and although I regret the pain I went through after telling, I no longer regret the actual session, well, at least not so much. It is only our secrets that can really hurt us in this context.