After a light purge, I feel like I am trying to go against gravity, and float in the air, but after a heavy purge, I can barely stand for close to 20 minutes. If I manage to get to my feet, I either feel like I'm going to pass out, end up losing something else from my stomach, or I just break in how much pain purging puts on my stomach. I have to push really hard to be able to lose anything, but once I start, it's super easy to lose a lot of stuff. 20 minutes after a heavy purge, I start to be able to walk again, with support from my boyfriend, but if I make a wrong step, I end up purging again. It's very complicated, and I want to stop, but I can't manage to stop, no matter how hard I try. I hope that all of you can stop, and I'll try as well
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Diagnosed with:
Asperger's Syndrome (high spectrum)
Panic Disorder
Non-purging type Bulimia Nervosa
“I don't need the perfect one. I just need somebody to make me feel like the only one” -Zayn Malik
~Malixer112
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