((((((((((((((((((((thank you)))))))))))))))))))))))))

Cajun, I'm still beliveing in you, so I can follow your carefully placed steps......

Faith, never thought that I'd have to forgive myself, you're right, just don't know when......

September....loving and feeling your care coming to me, thank you. I do feel it and it feels very nice. yes, I'm angry, ver angry at everything and myself and not getting it yet, just still punishing myself.

I am inspired to know you guys have strength and that I can maybe join you there in that place, maybe, just wish it was now...I see the road and it's.so.long.and.scary.