My T called me Tuesday to say she'd referred me to another service for counselling. My last session with her is on Monday.

Yesterday (Thursday) a woman from social services called my mum and left a message about a referral. No details of the referral were included, so my mum doesn't know what it's about. However, social services have been involved before, and things haven't gone down well at all.

I am REALLY freaking out and panicking and I'm so scared and on edge about this phone call, and I'm dreading this weekend - I'll be a nervous wreck 24/7 and I've cringed and felt my heart beating 100 miles an hour whenever the phone rang.

It's just 2 days until I see my T for the final time, and that's going to be hard enough. But now this has happened, things are so much worse.

On top of that, my mum and sister both laughed at me earlier when I said I wanted to study mental health nursing at University. They said they were "nutters", "freaks" and "crazy".

That really hurt.

So bad.

I just don't know how I'm going to get through these 2 days. I have no idea what I'm going to do if my mum finds out about counselling...I know it should be a good thing if she finds out, but I can't see it. When I OD'd, things got very very bad, and I do NOT want a repeat of that... I just hope they don't call back...