Thanks, I think you're right it is my depression clouding my judgement. My Pdoc has always said to email him notes inbetween sessions and to contact him straight away if things ever get really bad. So I know I'm just doing what he's asked of me, but the depression is still making me feel like I'm being a bad patient, and I'm just a pain, and I'm bothering him when he has enough stress to deal with as it is, and blah blah blah *insert more silly depressive thoughts here*