Hazel - I do see a T. We do intensive therapy, on average about six hours a week with plenty of contact in between. She is wonderful and a godsend. It was partly her suggestion I try to get some meds because she was concerned at how low I sink at times.

Also, I can't "cut back" on any other area of my life! I thought I made it clear that when I go out my close friends pay for my drinks (they know I will pay them back one day, we are long standing friends). I spend about £10 on meeting for coffee per week. Overtime's not an option, I'm looking for a full time position at the moment, as well as for stuff I can fit round my current job, I am working my *** off to get my **** together.