I need to blackout for a bit. I took some legal high pills the other day that made me black out for a day or so. I need that now. I just need to work out how much to take.

This isn't a suicidal thing, just a way of detaching. Distancing. Trying to get through until the point I want to get to.

No one will help you in this world. People only help people when it benefits themselves. I am on my own.