I wish I had something helpful to say but I am in the same boat. I am only living because of others as well. I feel that they would be better off without me here but I know if I take my own life they would feel guilty and have to deal with it for the rest of their lives. Meanwhile I am forced to wake up everyday and go through the motions of living but feeling dead. And I have to deal with the fact that I'm a huge disappointment to everyone. Yes, it sucks big time!!!