I feel so sorry at your struggle I'm trying to think of anything to ease your issues a bit, goodness. Have you considered finding one new friend on a free site like Craigslist? When I was struggling I did that, and met a couple good women there to get out and go on walks. The walks were great in a number of ways: fresh air, exercise, socialization, letting me listen to someone else's troubles instead of my own for a while, plus having someone to share mine with too, reciprocally, which is a nice shift from therapy where it's all about me. Sometimes, the intensive therapy you're in can actually exacerbate the sense of not coping, I know for me it has. I don't suggest it's negative to have that much therapy, but to be aware that the intensive work is draining and can cause some extra pessimism.