Sorry for wasting space on this threath. Is that I remembered one more thing I want to talk about. But you just read if you want.
I'm like "faking" all the time. Sometimes I just say things out of no where, perhaps with my heart, but to the wrong people in the wrong times. It's note like my sould speaks all the time. My male rommie is somehow a needy (???) person. He said me, you don't love me, you don't care about me, but I realy like you, you don't believe in this but I do...anyway I don't even care about me. But sometimes I really try to care about him. And I said this to the wrong person (they all feel the same) and he asked me - and maybe it's true? I digged into my feelings and there was nothing, so I can't lie...and said... Maybe. He get it. I just hope he doesn't ask me the same about him and about all my family, since I can't lie... this thought hits some point in my heart. Tomorrow I won't remember anything.