Why am I posting this in here??? I have no idea. Out of some of the things I have read... I said, "WHY NOT" This is just crazy. Why keep it to myself?

As some may know I have been frustrated by the actions of my T. I have been upset about it, angry and whined much about it. LOL

As I was frustrated and really disturbed by my T and his actions. Last night I had a dream about him.

I have been fighting against him in my thoughts. I had no interest in him. Someone asked me yesterday as I am sure it was just an honest question. I had no problem with it. ...but they asked me, " Do you have romantic feelings toward your T? Of course my reply was "NOOOO", as such was my thinking, as I am greatly in opposition to him. I went through all these emotions of being upset and hating him.

Well in my dream last night. I dreamed I fell asleep with him laying next to me, with his head laying on my upper back near my head. Me sleeping on my stomach as I mostly do regularly. This is strange, because I felt a wonderful great comfort I have not felt in a long long time. I even felt good when I woke up.
Nothing else happened in the dream. That was it.

I am actually confused, but I think I shouldn't go back. I say to myself many times today in my thoughts, " THIS IS JUST CRAZY"

I keep telling myself its just an action from what was said to me, and my mind probably playing it out and getting mixed up of wanting to be comforted from this frustration of choas.

I have no interest in having thoughts or being with him and I would never think about it, and always of a mind of having respect for wives, and even more than the man. (We women got to stick together you know, especially if there in no wrong. I hold firm my beliefs on that.)

Personally this guy is just an old fart to me (excuse my expression) that I have been annoyed with...and out of all people(???) Why could I have not dreamed about some good looking hot guy all big, buff, & strong.
...and yes I still consider myself asexual. I do not have these thoughts about men at all, no matter what. The dream was not really sexual. I was just being held in MY BED...lol
by some old guy who annoys me and upsets me. While being completely comforted by him. ...err it wasn't him. Just being comforted. It just happened to be him in my dream. WHAT GIVES???

This is not a good thing!!!