Ok NP Sorry I gave the impression I don't understand... I was trying to go lightly and under the "anxiety" idea rather than such OCD as you have now explained you really are dealing with.

There are plenty who live with these same issues... I'm just not used to reading too many on OCD sorry, my bad.

Actually, though, IMHO your medication might need to be adjusted. The meds in the world today do wonders, you just have to find the right one and right dose to help you live as near normal a life as you can.

But you might need to hear that from someone here with OCD that you trust more than me

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