Hello Must Keep Job, I know exactly what you go through. I will lay in bed worried about what people will say about me, how many more chances I have, people thinking I'm not reliable, because I'm not reliable, I'm not invited to join cool projects. I leave a voice mail because I'm to afraid to talk to the boss in person. I worry she will think I'm just making it up and being lazy when in reality just leaving the voice mail is difficult.
I wish I knew how to crawl out of bed. Like you, once I'm at work I have a great time. It's the time between waking up and realizing I have to join the world of the living.
If you find an answer, please share.
Good luck!